One day you wake up … on your own …
without the alarm blaring … or a cat staring you down for a bowlful
of pellets … or a child … holding themselves around the middle
and murmuring something about feeling like they are going to throw
up. … It's just you ... and maybe the twitter of birds for a
soundtrack.
Maybe it's a Sunday morning, and the
sun is out.
Maybe you have something to do; maybe
you don't. You're in no hurry in any case.
The house isn't silent. Make a mental
note of this if you can. You think quiet is peaceful now, but in
time, the truer silence will seem unsettling. Where is everyone?
There is movement deep within the
house. A dog barks. A door opens and closes. A dog barks again. The
process repeats.
If you are fortunate, there may be an
aroma of coffee wending its way toward you. Already poured and
colored the way you prefer.
It's probably not in your favorite cup
… but that's just nit-picky of you to notice. (I hope you didn't
say anything … It would seem ungrateful.)
Just say thank you, and let the words
vibrate the rust from your vocal chords. Smile and invite the bearer
to climb in and listen to music or read a book.
Be thankful the coffee is a little
cold. It will probably spill a little.
Don't mention the little splotches on
the floor, either. Scuffing your stockinged feet over the spillage
will erase the damage.
We are lucky to have so little to do.
I'll admit, I get a little down some
days … thinking of all the things I should be doing … but won't
be doing. All the little chores that pile up around me: The grass is
too long. … The weeds are overtaking the garden … The dog needs a
walk.
The kids go here and there, but it
feels like hours tick by with little movement.
Now that summer is in full swing, we
are flitting from one thing to another, but with ample time in
between to rest ourselves from the heat and humidity. It feels a bit
like the house has turned into a pond, and we are all colorful
amphibians, resting ourselves on lily pads before we jump at flies.
My son makes his own breakfast: A
bowlful of granola and a dollop of yogurt. My daughter walks him to
camp. I'll find his dishes tomorrow somewhere unexpected. It will be
a surprise. Under his bed? Behind the door in the bathroom? In the
hammock on the porch? He quietly keeps me guessing.
I'd tell you life was peaceful, but the
truth is the peace and quiet were brought to me by a wireless
connection. It roils my soul a little to know that in the quiet of
their lairs, my children are building worlds in Minecraft. Or perhaps
they are following their bliss around the block with PokemonGo.
As I read (and ignore) all the
scientific-sounding reports of the dangers of screens on young minds,
I am loathed to stop them. The kids are alright, I tell myself. This,
too, shall pass.
They are playing together in their
imaginary world. And I am drinking coffee in mine.
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